The Battle Begins

On May 23rd 2014, My medical Oncologist Amir Raffia, MD performed a Bone Marrow Biopsy on me. This is a procedure to collect and examine bone marrow. The spongy tissue inside some of your larger bones. This procedure was performed using a long fine needle inserted into my hip bone.

You’re probably wondering why is this exam being done and I already knew that I had Cancer? But a Bone marrow biopsy and bone marrow aspiration offered my oncologist detailed information about the condition of my bone marrow and blood cells. My doctor ordered a bone marrow exam because my blood tests were abnormal and didn’t provide enough information about a suspected problem (Cancer) this is also to determine staging. This exam was to see if the Cancer had spread into my bones as well.

As I laid on my side on the exam table, “Breathe in, Breathe out, this is going to hurt” were the last words I remember Dr. Raffia saying to me as he slowly inserted the thin needle into my hip bone. I gave a dead stare and then I SCREAMED.

The pain that I endured was worse then pregnancy contractions and giving birth. I laid on the table and knew in my heart that this disease was going to kill me and beat me to the core the entire time I tried to fight it off. God was punishing me for some strange reason, for a crime that I didn’t even commit and all I could ask him was why me? Being strong wasn’t an option anymore, so don’t even fool yourself Raquel, just die already your time is NOW. As I snapped out of my daydream all I felt was yanks and tugging, the numbness didn’t help much and all I heard him say was “Hold still Ms. Duncan, it’s almost over, hold still“.

After the exam was over I got up, thinking that the pain was finally over, but little did I know the Bone Marrow Exam was nothing but flowers, candy and sunshine compared to my next mission on this life changing journey. Dr. Raffia spoke to me about the next steps of my staging after I receive my bone marrow results. I was worried for a week straight thinking about the possibility of the cancer spreading into my bones, I could hardly sleep. I thought that this would be the end of my sleepless nights, but nooooooo, hold tight Raquel this isn’t a simple roller coaster at Coney Island, if you’re not ready to skydive be prepared, because it‘s happening, whether you are ready or not. The Battle Was Just Beginning for me.

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10 thoughts on “The Battle Begins

  1. Brandee Melville April 7, 2018 — 4:28 pm

    Proud of you!!!!

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  2. Stephanie Damon April 7, 2018 — 4:28 pm

    I trust and believe god that you were healed. God did not give me you to take you out of here. Keep trusting god he has plans for you to tell your story that can help others going thorough.

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    1. Thank you god mommy. The time is now to finally share my story with the world and help others fight, even when they feel like giving up is their only option. I love you!

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  3. god is good…im so very happy for you…god bless you. your story gives me strength and hope to fight more.

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    1. Hey Ms. Robin, I think about you all the time. I know that it’s not an easy fight, I’m someone that really understand you and your pain. You’re such a sweet and happy person, continue to smile, continue to fight and I hope my blog will help you get through it.

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  4. You already know I’m proud of you and I admire your strength and your preserverance, remember nomatter what god ALWAYS has the last say, he wouldn’t have brought you to it if he couldn’t bring you through it. Blessings to you and your family. Love you ❤️

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    1. You are so right about that, I gave up hope at one point, but I have reason to keep pushing forward. Thank you for being such a good friend. Love You Too 💪

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  5. I LOVE U SIS..LIL BRO 40..GOD HAD N HAS A PLAN 4 YOU TO BE GREAT CAUSE U ARE A GREAT FIGHTER…KEEP PUSHING SIS

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    1. I love you too Bro, I just want to help others get through the battle that they may be facing right now, any disease, illness or life changing event, they will get through it. You are great too. I love you always!

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